Chapter 171 Xi’er: Can I go to your house tonight? (5K)
“Really?”
“Is it really okay to do this?”
“You are just avoiding.”
The constant questioning from the depths of her soul made Xi’er raise her head suddenly. The dim light of the toilet cubicle shone on her face, and she looked at the ceiling absent-mindedly.
Another voice of her own kept circling in her mind.
“Are you avoiding again? Do you think you can avoid it forever?”
“Ask your own heart, Xi’er.”
“You don’t really think that you are as selfless as you appear, do you?”
The black Xi’er’s words seemed to have a different kind of magic.
“Admit it, Seele.”
“Admit it, you just want to possess him.”
“You don’t want to give him to anyone.”
“In fact, you know it well. That time, after you deliberately created the opportunity for him to date Sister Bronya, you have been watching from afar.”
“When you see the smiles on their faces when they are dating, you will feel a faint pain in your heart.”
“You imagine that it should be you who is by his side. You want to occupy his warmth, his body, everything about him…”
“That time in the office, you watched him secretly sleeping. You knew that Sister Bronya might come here soon, but you still couldn’t help doing such a thing… If it weren’t for Pepe’s appearance, the matter would have been exposed.”
“But I know very well that I am more than anyone else. Everyone knows that at that time, you didn’t feel a bit embarrassed or guilty. ”
“You just felt wholeheartedly, unprecedentedly comfortable.”
“Especially when you saw that Sister Bronya was kept in the dark, didn’t know about your secret love affair with Su Mu, didn’t know about your intimate actions just now… and naively thought that your relationship with him was just a gradually close good friend.”
“You felt trembling all over, and even your body was out of control, right? This feeling, this feeling makes you almost obsessed, almost crazy… You have been enjoying this unknown love affair, enjoying the pleasure of being one step ahead of Sister Bronya, enjoying the feeling of her being played around by you like a fool…”
“Seele, am I right?”
The power of words is so terrifying.
It only takes a short moment to break down the psychological defense line.
In front of another self, Seele has nowhere to escape.
Her shoulders trembled slightly.
“When Xier heard about Brother Su Mu and Sister Bianca, she felt her heart was broken…”
“But Xier knew that she had no right to say these words. It was Xier’s willful request that caused Brother Su Mu to encounter such a thing…”
“If I could stand up earlier and bravely say that I was Brother Su Mu’s girlfriend, maybe this matter would be resolved.If it were not for the fact that Seele was too willful and timid… I knew that Bronya liked him, but I couldn’t control myself and took action against him!”
“Afterwards, I shamelessly hoped that Bronya would not resent me…”
“Seele clearly made so many excessive demands on Su Mu brother, and it was Seele who said it herself, hoping that Su Mu brother would do this…”
“But Seele couldn’t control her wild thoughts. I knew I shouldn’t think too much, but I couldn’t control myself, I couldn’t control myself! ! ”
Seele hugged her head, her face twisted in pain.
She had been deceiving herself.
She thought that she could stay by Su Mu’s side with peace of mind, and that as long as Su Mu and Bronya were together, she would be satisfied after enjoying even a little sunshine and warmth from the gap between them.
But the ugly jealousy was playing tricks.
She was not as generous, tolerant, and… selfless as she appeared to be.
She didn’t want to give this warmth to anyone, not even to Sister Bronya.
But…
The huge sense of guilt made it impossible for her to forgive herself.
“Yes, Seele admitted that Seele only wanted to possess him. Seele only wants Seele to be by his side. Seele wants to be with him forever, from good morning to good night before going to bed, from the ends of the earth to the corners of the sea… Seele hopes that all his memories related to beauty will have Seele…”
“But so what? Even if Seele admits it, what can it do?”
“What can Seele do? Seele doesn’t even dare to face Sister Bronya, and she doesn’t even have the courage to face Sister Bronya and say that she likes Brother Su Mu! Even if she admits my selfish and dirty thoughts, and admits that I am a selfish and stingy person, what can it do!”
“In the end…”
“What can I do?”
“I can only do this, right? At least in this way, both Brother Su Mu and Sister Bronya can be happy, and I will not be hated by Sister Bronya. ”
The girl cried and cried silently in her heart.
“I don’t care, even Sister Bronya, I don’t care.”
But the other self responded to her like this.
“I know it’s difficult to make a choice, and it’s useless to escape even though it’s shameful.”
“But have you really thought about it?”
“Even if Sister Bronya is really with Su Mu, your relationship can be recognized openly?”
“You have always thought so.”
“Even if Sister Bronya is with him, even if she doesn’t make her relationship with you public, you don’t care.”
“As long as there is a place for you by his side…”
“Even if thoseYou can accept that the first time of the beautiful memories was not you. ”
“I know that your desire for Sister Bronya to be happy is not false, but if this happiness is based on your concessions and grievances.”
“I don’t want this kind of shitty happiness!”
Hei Xier took a deep breath.
“I only care about you and myself.”
“I can’t be as generous as you, and I can’t see other women still forcing a smile and being indifferent around him.”
“Do you know why?”
“Because I never deceive myself.”
“Xier, I am you, and you are me. I know what kind of person you are, and you also know what kind of existence I am.”
“Morality, restraint… these are not important to me at all.”
“I only care about my own feelings, I only care about your feelings, I only care about – our feelings. ”
“As long as you follow your heart, I will support you no matter what decision you make.”
“You have the right to choose your own life, the right to choose to love and be loved. You are not someone’s appendage. You are yourself, you are Sile Freire!”
“Tell me, Sile, what do you want to do!”
I want to stand by his side.
I want to tell everyone that he is my lover.
I want to have the courage to face Sister Bronya.
I still hope that he can be with Sister Bronya, and hope that Sister Bronya can be happy.
But.
I want to declare to him, to Sister Bronya, and to everyone…
The first person to stand by his side is me.
“But it’s over, isn’t it? ”
Seele showed a somewhat sad smile on her face.
“Brother Su Mu should be at the award ceremony now.”
——It should be so.
Seele looked at her mobile phone. The award ceremony also had an online live broadcast.
She looked at the figure——but she didn’t see it.
Silin Kaslana.
Bianca Yulandel Kaslana.
Kiana Kaslana.
But there was no sign of Su Mu.
What’s going on?
According to the original plan, Sister Bronya, who was watching the live broadcast, should She should have seen Su Mu and Bianca appear together, and thus be stimulated and changed…
But Xier couldn’t find Su Mu in the picture.
A trace of confusion appeared on her face.
As if she had realized something, Xier suddenly stood up, pushed open the door of the compartment, and rushed out.
Xier stopped in front of the office with the words “Game Director” on it.
Her clenched fists were full of sweat, and after making up her mind, she pushed open the door.
In the office, Su Mu was sitting in front of the computer, typing on the keyboard intently.
Xi’er was stunned.
She widened her eyes, her face full of disbelief.
“Su Mu…brother?”
Xi’er’s voice made Su Mu, who was sitting at the desk, raise his head, and he smiled at Xi’er.
“What’s wrong?”
There was no trace of impurities in that smile, only the tenderness of doting.
“Shouldn’t you be at the scene?”
Xi’er’s words made Su Mu stunned for a moment, he coughed, and then spoke.
“I’m sorry, Xi’er.”
“I asked Bianca and Kiana to go together.”
“I also explained the misunderstanding between Bianca and me to the teacher at that time.”
Su Mu’s words made Xi’er’s face look confused.
“Why?”
Her voice trembled slightly, and she didn’t know what kind of emotion was filling her chest at the moment. Was it doubt, surprise, or… relief?
“I’m sorry for failing your kindness.”
Su Mu apologized to her.
“I thought a lot afterwards. First of all, this incident will have a great impact on Bianca’s reputation. Secondly, I think this behavior is also deceiving Bronya. Even if I want to pursue Bronya, I can’t do it in this way.”
“I want to be upright and use my own way… to fight Bronya.”
“Then…”
Su Mu stood up and walked towards Seele.
Seele saw Su Mu walking towards her and subconsciously shrank back, but there was a wall behind her and she couldn’t retreat.
Su Mu’s hands were on the wall, and his face was close to Xi’er.
Xi’er could even feel Su Mu’s breath.
“I don’t want to upset some jealous person.”
Su Mu stretched out his hand and flicked Xi’er’s forehead.
“Brother Su Mu, it hurts!”
Xi’er covered her forehead and looked at Su Mu in front of her with tears in her eyes. She really couldn’t react to this.
“It hurts, right? If you keep something in your heart and don’t say it out, I will spank you hard.”
Su Mu snorted, pretending to be angry, but the corners of his mouth really couldn’t help but rise.
“You are obviously reluctant to let Bianca and I go to the award ceremony together, and you are also reluctant to let us be misunderstood as a couple, right?”
Su Mu’s direct words made Xi’er stunned. She lowered her head and muttered: “But, it was Xi’er who proposed the plan, but Xi’er wanted to change her mind at the last minute…”
“Are you stupid?”
Su Mu stretched out his hand and rubbed Xi’er’s little face fiercely.
“Woo woo! Su Mu Gege, don’t tolerate it, Teng! (Brother Su Mu, don’t be gentleIt hurts)”
Seeing Xi’er’s face being pinched like a dumpling, Su Mu did not stop this action. He bullied Xi’er and scolded her.
“Then I said I would go camping tomorrow and watch the stars with you at night. As a result, it rained tomorrow, and we couldn’t camp and see the stars… I’m in a bad mood. Can’t I change another plan?”
“This, this is different…”
“Why is it different? If this matter makes you unhappy, can’t you just push it away?”
“Wu?”
Su Mu let go of Xi’er’s face, looked at her red little face, and sighed.
“Xi’er.”
Xi’er also noticed the change in Su Mu’s mood at this time. She covered her face with some fear, fearing that Su Mu would rub her again.
“In…? What, what happened? ”
“Who am I to you?”
“Brother Su Mu?”
“I won’t blame you for calling me like this when you go out, but what should you call me in private?”
Xi’er looked at Su Mu, and after hesitating for a moment, she answered uncertainly: “Dear… dear?”
Su Mu once again stretched out his big hand and rubbed Xi’er’s face directly.
“You still know who I am? Do you know what these three words mean? It means that no matter what the matter is, you can come to me for discussion. When you are happy, I can be happy with you. When you feel sad, I can be sad with you…”
“No matter what decision you make, I will support you, and no matter what you want to say, I am willing to listen… because you are my lover, Xi’er. ”
Xier widened her eyes.
She looked at Su Mu in front of her, and for some reason, tears could not be controlled and slid down her eyes.
“Hey? I, why am I crying… It’s so strange…”
She wiped her tears, but found that she couldn’t stop crying at all.
“I, I’m not… I feel so happy, really so happy, but… Xier doesn’t know why, tears can’t stop at all…”
Su Mu hugged Xier tightly in his arms, his hand gently stroked Xier’s back, he could feel the girl’s body trembling.
For a long time.
The girl in his arms finally stopped trembling.
“Brother Su Mu.”
“Yeah.”
“I’m sorry. Xier is actually very jealous that Sister Bianca and you are mistaken as a couple. Xier hopes that your wife is Xier.”
“I should be the one to say sorry, Xier. I was wavering before, just passively accepting it, letting you find a way to bring me and Bronya closer.”
Seele raised her head, and her face had turned into a cat-like face because she had just cried, which was funny and cute.
“Seele likes you, and also likes Sister Bronya. So Seele also hopes that Sister Bronya will alsocan be happy. But even so, Seele will be jealous when she sees you and Bronya together. ”
“So, Seele and Brother Sumu do a lot of things, things that Sister Bronya has never done. I want Brother Sumu to remember that Seele is your first lover.”
Sumu looked at the little cat’s face full of determination at this time, and found it cute and funny.
“So should my first lover do something to show his respect now? ”
Two blushes appeared on Seele’s face. She punched Su Mu’s chest with her little pink fist, and then almost without any reason, it was printed on Su Mu’s lips.
I’m sorry, Sister Bronya.
Seele greedily enjoyed the beauty of the moment. At this moment, she apologized to Bronya in her heart.
I also want you to be happy.
But before that.
Seele wants to walk ahead of you and pursue Seele’s own happiness.
After about a minute, the two finally separated.
But Seele still She leaned on Su Mu’s chest and didn’t leave.
Her body was covered with sweat, and her heavy breath was mixed with the fragrance of young lily of the valley, which was a kind of smell that made people fall in love with it.
Su Mu was very aware that his heartstrings were constantly being aroused by Xi’er’s delicate breathing.
As if she had made some kind of determination.
Xi’er gently pushed Su Mu’s chest away, and she tidied her clothes.
She played with her short hair with her fingers, and after a while, she said with a blushing face.
“…Can I go to your house tonight?”
